Can You?

During the second day of the camp - Uncovering Potentials, Realising Dreams - I was suppose to give a talk on some kinda problems and suffering other people lived with and been through. It's something about poverty, homeless people, domestic violence, global warming and so on. So the speech is abit boring I thought cause I am suppose to be serious with the campers. Then after the speech we had a short Spiritual Walk and we come to an oath taking session. In this session we are suppose to promise ourselves that we will do our best to help all the people who are suffering around us.

The whole thing went well, and to us it is very touching. I don't know whether I had achieve the goal of touching their hearts but the thing is definitely touching. After the whole session and I went into my dorm, one song suddenly struck my mind. It's Never Let Go by Bryan Adams. This song is actually dedicated to the great people of US Coast Guards. Well for those who watched Guardian you will know what I am talking about. The ending was really touching. Especially these scenes.

The scene where Randall was holding on to Fischer on the air and the cable that holds them on is about to snap.

Fischer : I WON'T LET GO!
Randall : I know...

And Randall just opened his gloves and fell into the sea.

*Tears are actually rolling in my eyes when this scene is playing.

Another scene will be the very end part. Where Fischer just saved a man and they are in the helichopter.

The man : Where is he?
Fischer : Who?
The man : The other guy! He said he won't let go!
Fischer looks out and he had found his answer of why Randalls body was never recovered.

That wasn't as touching as the previous scene. However it's a pretty good ending.

Come back to the song. The very first line of the song suits the whole oath taking session alot but I couldn't play it cause there wasn't any player there.

Can you lay your life down, so a stranger could live.

This line, this line is more than enough for us. Now while you are listening to this song, read through the lyrics and take some time to think. Can you be one of us. One of us who pledge to help others who deserved to be helped. Help those less fortunate people out there. Can we do that? Can we?

Never Let Go - Bryan Adams

Can you lay your life down, so a stranger could live?

Can you take what you need, but take less than you give?
Could you close everyday, without the glory and fame?
Could you hold your head high, when no one knows your name?

That's how legends are made, at least that's what they say.

We say goodbye, but never let go.
We live, we die, cause you can't save every soul.

Gotta take every chance to, show that you're the kinda man who;

Will never look back, never look down and never let go.

Can you lose everything, you ever had planned?

Can you sit down again, and play another hand?

Could you risk everything, for the chance to be alone?

Under pressure find the grace, or would you come undone?

That's how legends are made, at least that's what they say.

We say goodbye, but never let go.

We live, we die, cause you can't save every soul.
Gotta take every chance to, show that you're the kinda man who;
Will never look back, never look down and never let go.

Gotta take every chance to, show that you're the kinda man who;

Will never look back, never look down and never let go.

We say goodbye, but never let go.
We live, we die, cause you can't save every soul.

Gotta take every chance to, show that you're the kinda man who;

Will never look back, never look down and never let go.

Will never look back, never look down and never let go.

After listening to this song, and if you say yes to all the questions asked in this song. Please take out a piece of paper and write down today's date and your name. Keep the piece of paper in your wallet or your purse. It's a reminder to yourself that you have made a vow to help the less fortunate people outside. Thank You.

Uncovering Potentials, Realising Dreams - The day before

It's been a hectic week for me last week. Having last minute prep for camps with my friends. Though I told them not to do last minute work but somehow we just can't change the fact that we are better off with last minute work. LOL. So we had a really last minute meeting like 2 days before the camp starts and had them prepare for our own style of Amazing Race and games and Spiritual Walk. Then I left for Taiping and came back the following day. Got a call from Kuang Ze (the real chairman for the camp) at 10 pm with a really last minute request.

KZ : Eh Robert ar, lu tonight wu lai temple boh? (Robert, are you coming to the temple tonite?)
TZ : Boh lar, mia cai kah khi. (Nope, I'll go tomorrow.)
KZ : Lu mia cai kui tiam eh lai? (What time can you come tomorrow?)
TZ : Lu ai wa kui tiam lai? (What time you want me to be there?)
KZ : Peh tiam eh boh? (8 am can?)
TZ : BEH LA! Before chap tiam la... Wa sure gau wan... (Can't la! Before 10 am, I sure reach wan.)
KZ : Sure har? Lu tomorrow ai prepare opening speech cai boh? (Sure har? You have to prepare for opening speech tomorrow, you know bout that?
TZ : (I was like... err...) OK la, cai liao cai liao... Wa later khi prepare... (Ok la, I get it already, I'll prepare it later.)
KZ : Ok ok, mia cai mang late har. (Ok, tomorrow don't be late.)

So I continued watching tv till it was like 11pm and starts to think what am I going to say on the opening of the camp? I switch the tv off and went online hoping I can get inspiration and tng tng! Ah lian ee is online, ju siao with her n see. Hahahaha. Chatted for quite sometime for the points and she went off. Still trying to put things together... tng tng... Jane came online. Ah ha! Another help came just in time. Hahahaha... So we discussed again for some time and she decided to hit the lights off. A very greatful thank you to both of you. If you want to know what is the speech like, stay tuned for the next part of this title.

I need to sleep more... Been up taking care of the cheeky campers till 4am yesterday.

Yet Another "Wise" Decision...

WARNING... This Blog Post is DEFINITELY NOT for fanatics such as those in you know what la... Just in case you want to sue me... I don't have anything to pay so don't bother doing so.

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Recently this has been up on the headline for like two days already. Yoga was BANNED! Not to all but to certain group of people only. I don't know why but these people seems to create most of the noise. Especially during parliament meetings. They are the one making racist remarks and yet they accuse people of making racist remarks. What are they trying to imply? Is it that they are the only race, therefore any remark regarding them is classified as racist remark while the rest are not considered race so those remarks made are not racist remarks? Up to you to decide.

Never mind about that, it is still a long time before Malaysia can reach High Tech Nation  if they are still fighting over who perli-ed who and why chinese are "pendatang". Eh MAHATIR! Your 2020 vision is not coming true. 11 more years but it seems we are not "ready" for it yet. I think we do stand a chance in 200200. Alright, let's get back to the main topic. Yoga. I wonder how did they come about making this decision. It seems the main reason is that Yoga has some religious influences in it. It is said to be some Hindu-Buddhist teaching is preached when learning yoga. To what extend this statement is true, I'll leave it for you to judge. However, before you make any decision, let me share some Yoga experience of mine with you.

First of all, let me describe my size. I'm 189 cm tall, weighing at almost 90Kg, you can imagine the tummy I have. All my friends know that I am not FIT at all. So by perception, I think I can't bend my body. But I can! To certain extend of course. I can't bend my body to allow my head to touch my knees while my legs are straight. (LOL). I first practiced yoga when I joined some novitiate programme back in 2003, 2005 and 2007. My mentor said yoga can help us stretch our body so that during our meditation session we can sit longer without experience pain on our legs and our back. So he taught us a set of yoga call "Worshiping The Sun". Not a very hard routine and also not a simple routine. I can do all the postures except one where I have to bend down forming a triangle with the floor. My feet just won't touch the ground. Never mind about that, I cheated my way through that. I actually enjoyed that because after doing that you really can feel the difference in your body. So I do think yoga helps.

Now here comes the question. In Buddhism, we actually don't worship any god or any human being. The Buddha (the statue you see in temples especially the famous one in Thailand - The reclining Buddha) is just our teacher. We pay respect to him for what he have been through and for what he had taught us. We do not worship him like idol worshiping. Therefore we are flexible for He said, " Come and see, if you think this benefits you, then practice it." In a general way of explaining this will be - practice whatever that you think is good for you and whatever that helps you to attain Nibbana (ever lasting peace). So we just learn whatever that helps us. We do not practice or learn anything blindly. So Yoga to us is just a way to help us. At least for me it is. I have never ever thought that yoga has religious elements in it. Who cares what "Worshiping The Sun" is for or really do we worship the sun? All I did when I was doing the posture is trying to ease my pain. Where got time to think about other things?

Well another reason I heard from my mom (she practices yoga regularly, I don't) was there is this meditation session included in the whole routine. (So there are other routines!!!) She thinks that this might be the cause that those people consider it a religious element. Well to me meditation is not a word solely for Buddhism. I believe other religion also have their set of meditation. They do meditate! Just that the ways are different. We believe in concentrating on certain things to realise impermanence, non-self and suffering. While Christians of course have their which I do not know what they contemplate on. As for muslims, if I haven't remembered it wrongly, it is stated in my Form 4 History Text that Nabi Muhammad "bertapah" in some cave. So he did meditate after all. He meditated based on Allah's teaching. I meditate based on Buddha's teaching. Meditation is a very general term. It doesn't mean that you are a Buddhist if you meditate. It doesn't mean that you will be influence to be a Christian if you meditate. It sure doesn't make sense that you will become a Hindu follower if you practice yoga. 

Things are amazing. A 100ml cup filled up with 50 ml of water could be half full and at the same time it could be half empty. Why choose to look at things in a negative way? Why complain that the cup is half empty? Why not we rejoice that the cup is half full? Why think of so many ways to restrict people? Why punish yourself for the things you have not done? Why want to dig something up to make yourself suffer? Is it worth it to build walls around yourself to make sure you don't go out of it to make mistakes when you can have beautiful sceneries outside the walls? I wonder why this body is making so much noise. They should spend their time thinking how to make Malaysia a better place and how to make Malaysia achieve Developed Nation status.

Heroes - VILLAINS

It's been 3 seasons already only I posted something about heroes. Hee... Now it's already season 3. Many things have changed and it's only 9 episodes. FOR THOSE WHO HAVEN'T WATCH PLEASE LEAVE NOW OR BARE THE CONSEQUENCES OF SPOILERS YOURSELVES. 

Let's start with some recap on what happened the last two seasons...

Season 1.

Our playground baddy aka Sylar lost is injured and lost his powers. (Hooray!) Our world savior - Peter Petrelli got red (literally) and was taken into the air by his brother, Nathan, and Ka-Boom! That's when everyone thought Nathan and Peter is dead. Our Sylar also died in the "Final Battle" so everyone was happy and smiling. :-) The End.

Season 2.

Our dearest Peter is not dead! (For those who cried over his death, he's got spontaneous regeneration with him remember?) As for our senator, he survived of course, was healed and the show continued with a larger plot behind it. Somebody is behind all his power power thing. He is even worse than our Sylar. More people were killed for that. The Company, who invented a type of virus that could wipe out the entire world's population, was behind that? Or is it Adam Monroe, Hiro's childhood hero? (Actually Hiro's hero is Hiro himself.) Adam killed nearly half of the Company's Board of Directors and he wanted to release the virus. Of course, our Peter came into rescue again. He destroyed the virus and Hiro sent Adam to Kaito (Hiro's dad), in Kaito's coffin, under the ground. You're right, Kaito is dead. So after all this thing, Nathan decided to reveal the "secret" to the public. Just when he's about to say it... HE GOT SHOT TWICE AND DIED! The end. By the way, Sylar wasn't dead and he is still collecting his powers. 

Here comes season 3 (Updated till episode 9)

Now things starts to get confusing. Guess who shot Nathan? Jeng jeng jeng! PETER! Yeah. PETER from the future shot him. Why? The show started with a cute brunette holding a gun pointing at the future Peter. Of course Peter avoided the bullet and took the gun to return to present day to shoot Nathan. According to him, if Nathan hasn't announced the "secret", the world wouldn't turn bad. People are having powers! Anyone with the ability to buy it will have it. So, again, he has to stop it! Then things just go crazy with Sylar getting Claires power, and Sylar turns out to have the last name Petrelli. Yupz. He is Peter's brother. No wonder they share the same kind of power right? The can learn other people's power. Now our playground bully turns out to be a hero after all? For awhile at least. The show is still going remember? As for Peter, he was brought to the future by Peter (you know which Peter I am talking about) and he acquired Sylar's ability and the next thing you know, Sylar from a goody boy, griefs over his son's death, blew up Costa Verde. So this present Peter now turns out to be a villain! Oh no!!! As I say, the show is still going, and the story is as confusing as this blog post. Everything is screwed up. Whimpy Mohinder is now a monster! I love Tim Kring for that. As for Peter's role... Stupid Tim Kring.

ps. Elle Bishop - Kristen Bell is so cute. She got together with Sylar.

That's some recap of what happened until today.

Personal Comment

Season 3 is damn confusing now. Heroes turn villains, villains turn heroes. However, one thing I am sure now is, the whole thing was caused by Peter's parents. They were fighting against each other. Many new abilities were introduced and of course there are recycles of abilities. 

The new heroes

1. Daphne aka Speedster aka Nemesis (Hiro calls her that). She can travel at the supersonic speed. Surprise! She is the only one besides those with the ability to control time and space to be able to walk free when Hiro freezes time. However she can't travel at supersonic speed during that time.

2. Knox. He turns peoples fear into his own strength and he uses it against you.

3. Flint. Human Flamethrower. That explains all.

4. Tracy. She is one of the Nikki series. Of course she is not Nikki but look exactly like her. She has the ability to turn things into ICE.

5. Arthur Petrelli. He can suck ability out of you and then acquires it. He took away all of Peter's abilities.

Well, there are more to come. The new Sylar is even more YENG than the old one. Trust me on that.

Till then. Next episode is on 24th Nov 2008.

  

What has GAYS to do with Crime Rate?

After reading Choya's post, it reminds me of the most recent ridiculous news. Gay party was raided in Midlands Park. For those who don't know where is it, IT'S the damn place where I stayed near to. Ahem! Not where I stay in ok? You might be wondering if Choya is straight or not but stop wondering whether I am. I am definitely STRAIGHT!! I have reactions towards girls ok.

According to yesterday's news (The Star 4 Nov 2008), two massaging parlours was raided for organising gay parties. So all of the party goers were brought back to the police station and questioned. Now at first I thought ok, they are doing some funny actions in there. (Hint: they found condoms. Both used and unused) Oops... What are they doing eh? I think satays in Pulau Tikus Market is very nice. However, when I read the whole thing, I actually found out that it already had some related cases months ago. Whenever there are complaints on rising crime rate, there will be operations on raiding gay parties. Now, what is wrong with gays? Nothing. Just that gay party is not acceptable, it's just like sex parties. Nothing is wrong with sex but when you organise sex party then it's wrong. Get it??

However, what has gay parties to do with our crime rate increasing? Do they rob or steal so that they can be gays? I don't think so. unless they don't have money to get some protection. Hee. Other than that I don't see reasons for them being related to crimes. So why waste energy on raiding this kinda things instead of patrolling the dark areas. However I prefer them to solve more cases such as murdering cases. For instance, the murder of Altantuya. I means come on, what are the police doing? Raiding gays?? So they are so useless to the fact that they can only deal with these harmless gays? This is sad! Few months back, a police station in Chow Kit Road in Kuala Lumpur was reported to have been  shut down. When asked why, our famous Home Minister (who got demoted from Foreign Minister after his interview with BBC) explained that the place is too dangerous for the police officers. HOLY SHIT? Too dangerous for the police officers? Yeah, the samsengs there were very fierce lo! They will do anything to harm you lo! BULLSHIT! If the police officers are afraid of them, then who is there to protect the residents there? If those police officers are that useless, they shouldn't have been police officers, they should have switch jobs. I suggest them selling satays or Ramlee Burger. Well, that's what they do  best isn't it? Danger free job.

I wonder what is next. To what extend can our minister be so idiotic? Please! I hope they will understand this and hopefully they will replace those incompetent ministers. ANYWAY, congratulations to BARACK OBAMA. 

IDIOTS FORMING GOVERNMENT?

First of all, still remember our hottie Bollywood star?? DATUK Shah Ruk Khan? I still don't see a bloody reason form him to be presented with this award. Is this a sign that our award worth shit? That anyone can get Datukship? That one we will have to forgive "The Idiot" that maybe he "accidentally" put Shah Ruk Khan's name into the list. How about this. People who marries single mother gets RM1000? Now this is really mind boggling.

Recently the CM of our beloved historical state suggested that those horny perverts who seriously in need of money should be paid when they marry some MILF there. I mean come on and wake up. If you think pedophile are sickos, the person who suggested this is neither healthy. First of all, we might be facing 2 problems now. More divorce cases and cheat cases. WHY??

You see, usually when people are committed and the finally got married. It is suppose to be a sign of love or an accident happened. Nobody can force someone to marry and now they create the loop hole themselves. Government will give you money if you marry a single mother. So let's con the tax-payers money. How about I hire some 5 single mother, and then I open a match making firm. I encourage guys to participate in match making. Good then when they got married, I take 20% of the money the got from the gov. They can later split the balance and divorce 3 months later. Then the process repeats and I am making money. Well, this money is ang pau money - TAX FREE!!! Those boys (especially drug addicts and beggers) you are welcome to my firm. You'll get a few hundred ringgit everytime you sign your name in the registration counter for marriage.

So this is why I call them stupid. The case above might not happen in real but part of it will happen. Which part? The drug addicts can actually marry and get the money to get more drugs. You might be thinking," Who wants to marry a drug addict?" How about another drug addict? They marry, give birth, divorce = single mom produced! Then they play pervertic games like wives switching and woo laa! Goverment pays for the drugs and the wives switching parties. Nice isn't it?

Pretty stupid suggestiong, I wonder what will they come up with next? Dato Seri for those who filmed the opposition parties' member in nude? Or maybe Tun for the one who manage to sentence ARRRNNNU-ah? Or Compentiation for those who volunteer to plead guilty for politicians especially when they are involved in bombing pretty ladies? I wonder what's next.

The Greatest Person... Mom

Oh well. It's not mothers' day today but just that I got the idea from this Singaporean movie i watched just now. *psst.. my sister cried... I heard her sobbing in the cinema and when i turn n look... crap! her eyes are watery... Ok.. She would kill me if I elaborate on that. After all, no matter how much she loved and care for me, she's not my mother. HAHAHAHAHA! The movie I watched just now is Money (still) Not Enough. I thought it was suppose to be comedy but... who knows it turns out to be quite touching also.

SYNOPSIS 

Three siblings, eldest was abit dumb so he wasn't earning much. The second one was into property and living quite well at first. The youngest was into direct sales and earning some big bucks. Well it started with Three of the having dinner with their mother and then condemning the Singaporean government. Later the eldest brother then ask for some tips of getting money. So he ended up becoming a "MANYZER" for the sales line. Story went well that all of them were enjoying life with their money. Later slowly they got into trouble... (as usual la) So all of them went like penny-less. All of them went back and borrowed money from their mother. The mother of course gave everything to them. Without hesitating. Then one day the mother got alzimer disease. So the three brothers again held a meeting of what to do. First they decided to take turn taking care of her. Later they couldn't stand it anymore and well sent her to old folks home. When she got to know it she fell and was admitted into the hospital. During one emergency where the mother needed blood, the daughter of the second son got into accident and needed blood as well. (Movie rite?) Oh yeah! They are of the same blood type O-. So the hospital only have 2 packets but not enough for both. The wife of the second son when running towards the daughter and snatched the blood from the doctor. Oh well... As they were quarreling, the mother heard it and she pulled something out (it's needed to support her life), and passed away.

You should watch the damn Movie! It will really make you go into deep thought and repent on the things you've done... 

Now, enter the main topic. Which is dedicated to my mom. Don't get me wrong. She's not dead yet. She just got back from a charity tour. Still bloody healthy that she can attend yoga class 2-3 times a week. On friday she called me to do a research for her from the internet on Chinese Medicine Courses. She wants to attend it. Details later.

(Sorry for those who experienced bad childhood caused by their mother.)

I believe that most mothers are somehow the greatest person in their children's life. Well at least my mom is. Let me show it in a chronological form in our life. 

1. Before you come to this world.

Well, scientifically, life starts when you're... made... It takes usually two months after you're being made for your mother to start to get to know that you're here! However, during the crucial two months, if you accidentally came out earlier, you already hurt your mom's heart. She had been waiting for you to come, but not in this form. She lost you. She would cry and mourn and everything to express or to relieve her pain of losing you! Well suppose you did not come out at that earlier. Your mom would have find out after 2 months. Don't mention how happy she was at that time, just think of what she had done before you have even come out to breath in this world. You watch tv? See those Mamil Gold? Anfa MAMA? She drank that to make sure you are healthy inside! Sometime you bloody fool you don't like certain food, you make her vomit it out! The days of her suiting into your life had already started long before you are here. Until the day you are ready to face the new world, she had to endure almost 24 hours of labour pain! Not to mention the pain during the time she was giving birth to you! Especially if you are someone who are born to be big like me! Do you know how much her vagina has to expand to allow you to come out? If you still can't go through that, 2 options, cesarean or cut the vagina. Either one would mean PAIN to her. Simple because it had to be done without anesthetics. She had suffered before you come to live in this world.

2. Finally you pop into this world.

a. When you have no idea what is happening.

If you mom was lucky enough. She survived. Otherwise, the moment you take you first breath would have been her last breath. Let us not discuss on that or else the story ends here. Now that you are here, the time of your mom worrying for you has begun. When the doctor held you up and spank your ass. You mom felt the pain the same time as you cried. On the other hand, if you don't cry, she would be so worried that if you are alright? 

Now slowly you are growing, mom tried to provide us with the best they can give. Go to the place where they place the milk powders. Look at the price. Bloody hell! The milk that was said to have dunno what DHA AHA SA CIA ACA SIA AIA whatever A la! It is suppose to help your brain cells connect together so that you can study better and become more intelligent. Did I mention the price was like RM60+ for a small can of it? Compared to those without A's its like 3 times more expensive. However the damn thing is out of stock. So just when we barely know anything, mom has already put everything they have on us. Well during my time there's no such thing with all the A's la. 

b. (fast forward  >> You are a cute little innocent kid now)

Yeah! Entering childhood! Play time! Most of us considered childhood are suppose to be play time. We enjoyed our times during childhood. Well not every moment. I remembered I don't get much toys because I am a boy so erm... My dad kinda had higher expectation on me. So not much toys. Oh come on! How can a child live without toys? Despite knowing my dad will be mad at her, my mom bought me toys. Oh well, he did got mad. Thinking of that time, it has become a laughing stock between me and mom. Hey, she sacrificed for this idiot here you know! Why would she do that? She loved you my dear, she loved you!

c. Teenage! Rebels READY!

During the period of our life, we are most rebellious. We don't care what they say, we want to have it our way! We will crap all they stupid things to make sure we get what we want or to save our ass. Went we run out of idea, we shouted back at her. Well sometimes she just kept quite and let us win. Knowing that she wouldn't be able to change our mind. However she still hope that we can change. In case of emergency, she would resort to hitting us. Ever heard of Newton's Third Law Of Motion? It's simple action and reaction. He said that when an object A acts on another object B with a force F. The force F will be reacted on the object B the moment it touches object A. In our case, if she used a cane. The same law will apply. Just that we felt the pain on our physical body, the pain reacted on her mentally. Mom scolded us because she cared for us. She beat us because she loved us!

d. Entering University

Holy crap! This time finally come! I can leave her now. If you are thinking like this, I suggest you shut the computer after reading this paragraph and climb up the tallest building you can find around your house and jump down from there. You rascal. She had been waiting for this moment too! But not with the heart that you can leave her! She is putting all her hope on you that you can be independent! You can take care of yourself! You can survive when she's gone! That is why she sent you out! Especially if you are boys. 

e. I got my Degree! I got paid 10K a month for my first job!

Alright alright, the happiest person now? No not you. Mom. You have finally got something in your life. You can now live your own live which you have wanted and waited for 25 years. You can literally forget about her already! No no no! Then people will say I am a bad child if I do so. I better send her money every month. I think 100 will do la, since she got EPF. Oh yeah, then I will go and visit her every month and erm erm... Bring her out for dinner in some 5 Star restaurant. Yeah! That will do. Most of you will do so. I am avoiding myself of behaving in such way. I am still undergraduate.  Now, like you said, she has EPF, she doesn't need your money. When you are 25, your mother will be like 50 already. Becoming senior citizen already. She already can't eat much, she don't spend much. So why she need your money? All she want is that you can live a better life than what she had lived. At the same time. She wanted her child back! She needs someone to be with her. Someone whom she loved most! A guy will lose his wife when he had his children. 

3. When Mom is old and ill.

Everyone has to go through this unless you khi cia (die) earlier. So mom is not exempted from this. Even the greatest person on Earth had to grow old. She had too. Now she's old, the need of someone taking care of her is greater! Please! Even in this era, I know you don't have the time because you have you wife and your kids to entertain! You have your "business" partners to entertain to. So much so that you don't have the time to take care of your mother. Then you will sit down with you siblings and discuss who to take care of her? Well the "who" is not the siblings, the "who" is MAIDS! Or whose house is better?  Whose house have better feng shui? Whose house she can meet more old folks? Where they have more people to attend to them. I mean this can't be helped. When I was 14, my teacher asked us to write an essay on "What Will You Do When Your Mother Gets Old". Well I said I would send her to old folks home in the morning and pick her up in the evening. My idea was letting her stay at home is bloody dangerous. Considering she is lack of knowledge in the electronic stuff, I thought it would be best if she can be at some place where she is save. Just imagine what if she tried to cook something and she forget to turn off the stove? She would have burnt the house, never mind since we are earning 10K a month rite? The worst is that she couldn't get out of the house in time! She will be burnt to death! So that was my idea. Oh well I dunno whether she likes it or not? However she smiled when my teacher told her that. 

4. Her final journey.

Now that she is walking towards the end. By that time, you are already in your 40s or 50s. No matter who you have to entertain, please, come back to her, be with her, this is a true story. But its my grandfather. The night before my grandfather passed away, they doctor had announced the bad news that he wouldn't have to change to see another sunrise. That night he shouted in pain, all of his children were there except my uncle (not his own) who was in out station, he was rushing back. My grandfather wanted to see him for the last time. He hold onto the pain and waited in pain until the next morning. The moment my uncle came in and held his hand and call him. He smiled and shut his eyes. Even a father would have waited for his son, not to mention mother! So please, we know we couldn't do anything, so let us just make her happy for the last time if that is not the only time you can make her happy.

Let her feel the warmth in you before she leaves you for real.

to be continued...  

I Am An Illegal Immigrant Who Happens To Have A MyKAD

Now this is something why idiots shouldn't become politician. Recently, there is a guy from Penang, who happens to be some kinda higher member of some main component party of the ruling party of my country, let's call him A. A said something serious regarding my ethnic or race. He said that chinese are just mere immigrant who "tumpang" in this country. Well personally I would like to ask anyone. Just anyone will do. Are you a chinese or a MALAYSIAN? 

I mean that guy A must be nuts to do so. His remark is not going to get Malaysia to a better position. Neither to the Malays nor the Chinese. Malays are not going to be beneficial from this rather racist comment. I mean it is riddicculus to say so. Are chinese really immigrant? Oh HELL come on!!! That is some kinda HISTORY already. I mean it is true that chinese came from China (*duh*). However, after settling long enough in this country, I bet 80% of the chinese are now born in MALAYSIA. That is why we are not immigrant. The definition of immigrant is: someone who moves from another place (country) to go to a particular place (country) and settle down there. In this case, Chinese of this generation do not come from China, we are local! We are from MALAYSIA. So from Malaysia to Malaysia? So that's how we got ourselves being branded Immigrant?

Secondly, this idiot is rather worse than an idiot. Why he only speaks about the chinese? If chinese are immigrant because they come from China, likewise Indians are also immigrant because they come from India. Why he only brand the chinese immigrant? I really don't understand this. We are Anak Malaysia (children of Malaysia). However we are being treated as anak luar nikah (bastards) now! Why? We were taught to fight for our country, but why are we fighting for someone who thinks that we are anak luar nikah? Why are we not proud of our country when we should have been? I still remember my teachers always tell me, "Malaysia is a very unique country because it is a Multiracial Nation!" Yeah right. Multiracial. I think I will change it to MultiRACISTs country. I don't see the "perpaduan". Beginning of the year one race sang a song about the other race and got himself so popular that he is coming out with his new album in Taiwan. Later some other race went and parade in the street throwing rocks. Now another race come here and defended themselves with pride saying Chinese are immigrants. We will forgive them like what US did to the native americans and what Aussie did to the aborigin. 

I wouldn't say more. Well simply because we have a very happening law here and it's called ISA. O.o? ISA? It is some kinda law where you can be arrested and they don't have to give a single reason. Nice isn't it? Well it seems this only work with people of my kind but not the other kind. I don't want to end up in some kinda dark places without a reason. If I am going to die, at least I want to know why and how I die.

Last but not least. I AM AN ILLEGAL IMMIGRANT WHO HAPPENS TO HAVE A MYKAD ISSUED OFFICIALLY AND LEGALLY FROM THE MALAYSIAN GOVERNMENT!

ps. tearing pictures of people is something a childish girl do when she breaks up with her boyfriend. I wonder if Ahmad poked Koh Tsu Kun? Should have asked for DNA test rite??

AH LONG Have Their Story To Tell Too

Ah Long, Lintah Darat, Loan Shark, whatever you like to name them, most of us just classify them as bad people. They are pure evil some will say. However, personally, I do not think so. Let me make it clear that I am not supporting Ah Long. I am just telling what I have analysed. 

What do Ah Longs do? They loan money to people. What is wrong with that? Bank also loan money to people what? Are you trying to tell me that because they loan to big companies so they are good people while Ah Long loan to individuals so they are bad people? Nope that's nonsense. How bout Ah Long don't have license while Banks have? OK, that makes sense. To be precise, they are not paying tax, so they are those who avoided tax. Legal wise they are bad, other than that? They cut people with parang? They are gangster? They are inconsiderate people? So these are the main reasons behind Ah Long being the baddies right? Now we shouldn't be looking something from only one point of view. 

Every now and then, we read from the newspaper and we can see that so and so's house got painted red for free! Or maybe so and so was threatened by Ah Long and out Superhero M comes to the rescue. Have you not think of why they are being treated in this way? I tell you, even a three year old kid can answer this. They owe the Ah Long money. Harlo, when your friend owe you 1 lunch you would be teasing him for the bloody lunch until the day he treated you in some 5 star restaurant I bet. This happens to Ah Long also, but instead of teasing they decided to paint your house for free. You think paints don't need money ar? I do agree that they way they come around knocking on your door for the money is not right. I mean you do have something which you let them hold onto right? Why don't they just sell the damn thing and get the money back? Well, 2 reasons maybe. 

1. They are kind hearted so they want to save your properties? (I don't think there are many like this.)

2. They damn thing you let them hold onto just barely covered your loan interest. (Yeah!) 

Now, businessmen reading this now, why didn't they calculate the thing properly before loaning? Then when they sell the properties they will have enough to cover the cost. You are right. What if the above 2 cases happened at the same time? They saved your properties until the very last second before they had to sell it to cover the interest. No idiots would lend you money and tell you it's interest free. Harlo, if I want to earn money, I wouldn't be giving alms. If If I want to do charity, that's after I have money to do so. So no charity here. Return the money and we have nothing to do with each other.

Secondly, why people never go to our Superhero M when they owe bank money? Why? Is it real that banks are so noble that they will send diplomats to your house and ask you when are you going to return them the money? Harlo! If you are thinking like this, then you are retarded! Bank is the most worthless senseless loaning agent you are facing. This is what happen when you loan from banks. Have you ever read in the newspaper houses being put into auction? Semi-D in Penang goes for 200K. Wake up! Even 1 stupid double stories terres in Batu Maung cost you 450K. Why Semi-D goes for 200k? Simple, the previous owner of this Semi-D failed to return the money so bank auction it to cover the cost and processing fees. So that guy might be actually getting a loan of 100K. He didn't what his house being sold for 200k. In fact if he would sell that house himself to pay back the bank, he might be able to get a flat or so in penang still. Semi-D can easily cost you 800K to 1.2 Million depending on location. For the least, not 200k ok? So don't you think banks are senseless?

Oh yeah! Forgot about diplomats. Erm, have you ever heard of companies that helps people to collect debts? To tell you the truth, there are such companies. Why it's being set up? 2 possible reasons from me. 

1. It's just another business, you pay me 20% of the debts then I collect it for you.

2. Banks are legitimate. Running around with parang will not make them look good. So they set these companies up and hire gangsters to do the dirty job for them la!

So now tell me what is the difference between banks and ah long?

Now go and think about it. What is wrong with ah long and the bank? Which is better? Just don't be too one sided. Let say if I fill a 500ml cup with 250ml of water, will you say the cup is 

1. half full

2. half empty (or)

3. both?

4.  none of the above (choose this... then you can proudly declare that you are a moron)

till then... TATA!!

*f**k. My writing has gone from bad to worse.

Mathematics

So, how are you people doing with the two problems I gave you? Like it? HAHAHA. Alright, to those who had some hard time with the two questions, hold your breath! There's nothing bout that today. Hee. :p Sorry for those who are waiting for the third part. I am not going to update this series now. Thanks to my tutor who got me into this math thing again. Proving something really interesting. 

I really want to share this with you but not now. He gave us 3 maths problems to prove. However, I only managed to prove 2 of them, which according to him, that's SUPER EASY and Slightly easy. I am yet to prove the SIPEH (super, incredibly, riddiculusly _____(insert whatever you like) HARD proof. I already spent my whole afternoon trying to prove it. However, still I failed. Damn! 

Some of you might be wondering why I am so obsesed with it? After all, it's just a math problem. Honestly, this is not about math now. I admit I am really facinated by numbers and math, however, sometimes pride is the issue also. He told us a story behind this proof. I will tell you the whole story after I figure out the proof. I will only tell you how lame you are if you are unable to proof the question that I am going to post later in this post. This math problem is being proved decades ago by a BOY! He's only 7 year old then. Now? Harlo! How old are you now? If you can't prove this, you lost to a kid man. LOSER! (Well, that's what kept me cracking my head for this afternoon.) However, I solved it in the end. It's this another problem that makes me go cockoo whole afternoon! 

Nevermind bout that, just to make some noise bout losing to a kid. Hee. So here are the questions. I will post the answer some other time.

Let S = { 1, 2, 3, ... , 100}

n(A) = 51

A is a subset of S

I know some of you are thinking what the hell is this?

let me explain. S is a set which contains all the numbers from 1 to 100.

now 51 numbers were chosen randomly. 

Alright?

Now prove that 

i) There exist 2 numbers in the 51 chosen numbers such that the sum of these 2 numbers is 101.

ii) There exist 2 numbers in the 51 chosen numbers such that the Highest Common Factor (Greatest Common Divisor) of these 2 numbers is 1. 

*this is what the KID proved*

iii) There exist 2 numbers in the 51 chosen numbers such that one of the number can divide the other number completely. 

*this is where I got stuck*

So enjoy proving this. Muahahahaha.

for now, I will continue to crack my head.

- =.= -

Wonders of Numbers - Part II

Welcome back to another part of Wonders of Numbers. Today, we will be discussing about inequality. Don't know what inequality means? It means not equal (literary). So, has anyone got any idea of what I am going to say? Drum please... Applause... AAAAAAAAAAAAND THIS IS THE TOPIC! INEQUALITY! 

(I know it's a lame joke, sorry for that)

Alright. Let's get to the main topic now. I am not going to teach you what inequality is cause what I am going to share now is very basic for those who had taken Add Math and I will make it as simple as possible for those who doesn't know what Maths is all about. But first of all, you have to recognise some symbols.

1. equal to -- =

2. greater than -- >

3. less than -- <

4. greater or equal to -- >= 

5. less or equal to -- <=

6. not equal to -- !=

* I got these symbols from C++, it's faster for me to write in this form

So let's start of with some simple Mathematics. 

1. Learn some number classification.

Integers and Rational numbers.

Integers are whole numbers, positive and negative numbers. NO FRACTIONS NO DECIMAL POINTS!

Rational numbers are fractions of 2 integers. where the denominator is not 0. eg. 1/2, -3/9.

Alright we can start now. Most of us know that fractions are also numbers and decimal are also numbers. So they are actually equal at some point. Say 1/2 = 0.5 and 7/8 = 0.875. All fractions can be changed into decimal form but not all decimal can change into fraction form. I'll give you an example of a decimal number which can't change into fraction form or we say rational numbers. Try changing 1.414213562 into a fraction (rational number). How do we know that this number can be changed into fractions? So there is a basic rule. If your decimal number has some numbers been repeating at the back. it can be changed into fractions.

eg. 0.111111111111... = 1/9 

you can see that 1 is repeating

eg. 0.923076923076923076... = 12/13

notice that 923076 is repeating

So we made a conclusion that all number with some numbers being repeated at the back can be changed into fraction. For those in Form 4 and Form 5, remember changing some stupid numbers into fraction form using the Geomatric Series Rule and the Sum To Infinity of a Geometric Series? S = a/(1-r)? Alright now try changing 0.9999999....9999...99...9999 into a fraction. Now first thing first, answer this question.

Is 

A) 0.9999999999999...9999999...999999....99999 = 1 ? Or you say that 

B) 0.99999999999...99999999...9999999...9999 <>

Don't bluff! I know u chose A. Yeah everyone will choose A base on what they see. 

Now let us work this out and you will not believe what you see! Math is Magic!

So we use the geomatric way i mentioned just now.

So 0.99999999999....999999...99999...9999... = 0.9 + 0.09 + 0.009 +... right?

There for we have a Geometric Series of 

a = 0.9 and r = 0.09/0.9 = 0.009/0.09 = 0.1 or 1/10.

Use the formula of Sum To Infinity. ( This series has no end cause its a convergent series, the limit will goes to 0 (zero) when the number of terms goes to 00 (infinity).

So the formula is S = a/(1-r) --- if you don't believe me, google it.

So S = 0.99999999999999....9999999999...9999999... right?

S = a/(1-r)

S = 0.9/(1-0.1)

There for we put 0.9999999999999.....99999999......999999.... back into the S

0.99999......9999999.....9999999... = 0.9/(1-0.1) = 0.9/0.9 = 9/9 =1

So we make a conclusion that, 

0.99999999...9999999...99999 = 1

Now do u agree? NO? DON'T LIKE IT THIS WAY? Ok, I'll show you and esier way. 

0.9999999.....999999999...99999..99999 = 0.6666666666666...66666... + 0.33333333333...3333333...33333 right?

and 0.6666666666666666666....6666666666....666666... = 2/3

and 0.3333333333333333333...33333..333333...3333..... = 1/3

so 0.999999999........9999999.......999999.... = 2/3 + 1/3

      = 3/3

      = 1

Now you agree? Just accept it. Now Math has once again shown its Magic to you.

Challenge my theory.

Wonders of Numbers - Part I

Harlo! After so long, let you know more about myself if you haven't. 

1. My mom is a Form 6 Math teacher.

2. I got offered a place in UKM for Math but I chose to be in UTAR for Actuarial Science.

3. I never get anything less than B for Math.

4. I enjoy the thrill when I managed to solve a math problem.

So I think by now you are thinking why this guy is all about Math? Yeah I like numbers, not Numb3rs. I am fascinated by all the numbers and their theory and sometimes the working that you just can't prove it with the Math theory. You know, the magic of Math! You will go WOW! OOO! WHOA! *CLAPS* when you see something interesting about Math. I'll show you some MAGIC for the posts to come.

This Magic, I learnt it when I was attending a camp 2 years ago. (It involves some knowledge of alphabets and countries also.)

So you just follow the steps k?

1.  Think of a number between 1 - 9.

2. Multiply the number by 9.

3. You will get a 2-digit number. Add both the number and result it to 1-digit number. (eg. 88 -> 8+8 = 16 -> 1+6 = 7)

4. Subtract the 1-digit number you get by 5.

5. So let's change the number you just got to alphabets. 

1 --> A

2 --> B

3 --> C

4 --> D

5 --> E

6  --> F

7 --> G

8 --> H

9 --> I

6. So you get your alphabet already?

7. Now, think of a country starting with that alphabet.

8. Got it? Ok, now go back to the alphabet you got just now. You will think of an animal starting with the alphabet after your alphabet. (eg. if you get K, the next alphabet is L)

9. OK? So now, put the animal into the country you are thinking. (eg. ELEPHANT in DENMARK - 99% of you matches my example.)

10. Applaud please.

Hehehe. How do I know? Ok, unless you are really familiar with countries with D and animal other than E, you will be thinking Elephant in Denmark. There's an alternative to the country though. Dominican Republic. As for the animal, I am yet to discover something with E. If you have any idea, post it in the comments. 

So you want to know the magic? Yeah I bet you want to. Now you have to promise me 1 thing. Take this unbreakable vow!

I, (your name), solemnly swear to spread this piece of great shit around and trick my friends into loving MATH!

*This is not a chain mail. Nothing bad will happen to you if you don't forward it withing 99seconds. You will not get kisses from the person you admire secretly if you forward this within 3 seconds.

Alright! Secrets reveal. 

It is a known fact to many mathematician, especially those who are good in mental arithmetic. The trick starts when I ask you to multiply your number with 9. It is proven that if you multiply a number with 9, the sum of all the digits from your product will eventually become 9 when u add it until it become a 1-digit number.

eg1. 8960986 x 9 = 801548874

8+0+1+5+4+8+8+7+4 = 45

4+5 = 9

eg2. 7649512 x 9 = 68845608

6+8+8+4+5+6+0+8 = 45

4+5 = 9

eg3. 56772851 x 9 =510955659

5+1+0+9+5+5+6+5+9 = 45

4+5 = 9

By these 3 example, you can see that I randomly pick any number and multiply it by 9. When I sum all the digits in the product up, I will get a 9 in the end. With this, I am already MANIPULATING your mind. I make you subtract 5 from 9, which will result in 4. You will get D. with limited countries starting with the alphabet D, you will choose a better known country - Denmark. I make you think of an animal starting with the alphabet next to D, which is E, you will think of the easiest and largest animal on land - ELEPHANT.

That's how I know what you are thinking. Elephant in Denmark. MUAHAHAHAHA.

Isn't numbers just fun? Math is even better. Like my mom always says :

"Math is like a piece of music, the numbers are the notes on the grid, the way you put the numbers together and solve a problem is like putting all the notes together and play the music. When you hit the right note, you produce a piece of beautiful music."

As well as what my Professor says:

"Math is an ART. It is for those who really see the value in it to see the beauty in it. I don't know what Picasso or Leonardo da Vinci is drawing so I don't see the beauty in it. I don't think most of you know what Math is really all about, so you don't see the beauty in it."

Math, unknowns and numbers always come together. Enjoy numbers and you will enjoy math. Again, I want to stress that numbers is not the series NUMB3RS. This is totally different from what I am telling you now.

 

坚持

头前的路

thao cheng eh lor

(The road in front)

不知多长多呢苦

mm zai ua deng ua nee khor

(don't know how far and torturing)

看不著

khua boay tiok

(Can't see)

走著一步算一步

kia tiok ci bor s'ng ci bor

(a step will be a step)

雨水那落

hor zui na lok

(If the rain falls)

已经渥湿阮衫裤

yi king ark tam gun sa khor

(it will make my shirt and pants wet)

这阵风

ci zun hong

(This wind)

之是乎阮的心更加坚强

ci si hor gun eh sim kin kar kien kiong

(is only to make myself stronger)

成功的背后

seng kong eh poay ao

(Behind every success)

无知有多少苦楚

mm zai wu ua zhe khor chor

(don't know how much effort there is)

阮选择的路

gun xuan tit eh lor

(The road I chose)

一定坚持到成功

yi ding kien qi gao seng kong

(I will hold till I succeed)

坚持的心伴阮向前走

kien qi eh sim pua gun hiong cien kia

(Determination will walk with me) 

请你会记得阮的名

cia li eh ki tiok gun eh mia

(please remember my name)

有人出世就好命

wu lang chu si jiu ho mia

(Some people is borned lucky)

阮是用命在打拼

gun si yong mia tit pha pia

(I fight with my life)

勿怕失败慢慢向前走

mm kia sit bai ban ban hiong cien kia

(Don't be afraid of failure and slowly walk) 

运命不是天注定

wun mia mm si ti zu tia

(fate is not determined by god)

只要用心来打拼

ci yao yong sim lai pha pia

(As long as we work hard)

一定唱出阮的名

yi ting ciu chu gun eh mia

(we will make our name big)

This whole song is actually about being strong and keep holding onto our choices in life. When we made our choice, we will hold onto it. If we have the determination, we will be successful one day. By the way, it's a hokkien song. Hee.

I Don't Want To Be A Math Teacher!

Oops, long time never update this blog already. My apologies. Actually I had been quite busy with my assignments and this particular thing which was bothering me for the past week. For those who have no idea what I am talking about, we ( lotsa people who just passed STPM2007 ) got their Government Universities Entrance offer last Wednesday. All of us were excited of getting to know where we were offered. Of course, there were people who laughed and sobbed. To those who managed to get a good course (to you), Congratulation. To those who did not get offered, your fate will be determined next before 31st July, don't worry. To those who got some lousy course (to you and me), my sympathy. 

Actually, this good or not good thing was very subjective. You might think that this course is good, he might not think so. Simply because of interest and the job prospect and your capability of doing that subject. So in this case, those who considered themselves being offered some bad courses, too bad! No appeal! You have to stick with it or you go to private university. So I actually consider the happiest person would be those who did not get any offer but finally gets it. They will be over the moon by then. Yay! Ok. So what was I being bothered of? This is the thing, I just told you who are the happiest people. Now the saddest group will be those who fell into the group which they got some stupid courses. Again, this was just a personal view. Let me bring you back to one week ago. When the result had been just released.

>>--------WOOOOOOSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH------------------------------>

Sepilok : Yao meh? Bu yao la, teng xia na dao bu hao de ze me ban?

  (Really want? Don't la, later don't get good offer how?)

Jay : Bu yao jin la. Qu kan kan ma. Wo ye yao kan.

  (Never mind la. Go and see, I also want to see.)

Sepilok : Ok lo. Jen, se me link? ni check le mei you?

  (OK la. Jen, what is the link? You check already?)

Jen : Hmm, bu guo bu neng log in. Ta men shuo 12 dian, but wo de peng you zuo wan yi jin zi dao liao?

  (Yeah, but cannot login. They say 12pm, but my friends already got the result last night.

Jay : Zen de ma? Wo yao qu check liao, wo yao qu Perlis.

  (Really? I want to go and check now, I want to get Perlis.)

So the three of us went to the computer lab and start checking.

Jay : Wei se me bu neng log in de?

  (Why I couldn't log in?)

Sepilok : Wo ye bu neng. hai si sms la.

  (I also couldn't. We sms better la.)

Jay : Ai meh? gor puat lo!

  ( Want ar? 50 cent you know?) 

Sepilok : mian guan aneh cheh liao la! sms liao kah kong.

  (Don't care already! SMS first.)

So we sent our ic and waited for the reply. Jay's came first and mine came later.

Jay : hami? pemohonan anda tidak berjaya? tiok mm tiok?

  (What? My application failed? Correct or not?)

Sepilok : Mai luan. wa eh kah keat. Permohonan anda tidak ada dalam sistem.

  (Don't fuss yet. Mine better. My application not in the system.)

Jay : lu wu pang hyphen in lu eh ic boh? beh sai pang hyphen eh.

  (Did you put hyphen in when u key in your ic? You are not suppose to do so.)

  (Point to note. Malaysian IC or MyKad has got hyphen between numbers.)

Sepilok : Si meh? Ok, ok, koh lai ci tau.

  (Really? Ok, ok, again.)

So I sent the second message. The thing came back and make me feel really happy!

Taniah! Anda telah berjaya mendapat tawaran daripada UKM dan kursus yang ditawar ialah KS08. Sila hubungi xx-xxxx xxxx untuk maklumat lanjut.

WEEEEEEE!!!!! UKM LO!

oops, forget to translate. Congratulations! You have successfully got an offer from UKM and the course is KS08. Please call xx-xxxx xxx for further information.

Wah?! I got UKM? Suppose to be the top university in Malaysia now. I got it! What the hell man. So I told myself I can't be so lucky. So I looked at the course. What the hell is KS08? What could that be? Could it be my first choice? Actuarial Science? If so I will be in the history of entering this course not with CGPA 4.0. So they were all around me congratulating me for my offer. They ask me whether I will accept the offer or stay in UTAR. I told them I will probably accept it if it's  Actuarial Science. They say no need to think la. Sure is Actuarial Science! So I actually got carried away a little bit. Thinking how nice if it's Actuarial Science. Or could it be Mechanical Engineering. Immediately I sms my friends asking what do they get. To my surprise. They got USM, UTEM, UMS and UniMAS. I thought what the hell. What about their courses? Mechenical engineering. So that's not bad. Kejuruteraan Pembuatan? Ekonomi Industri? Chemistry? What the =>_<=?! I got lousier result and got offered better? How could that be?

So I quickly log into UKM website but too bad it's been clogged up, so I have to suppress my anxiety till after lecture. The feeling of wanting to know what is KS08 kept me restless the whole lecture. Damn. The feeling was like, you won't understand and I don't know how to explain. So finally the two hours of torturing is finally over. Me and my friends again went to the computer lab. Some want to find out theirs and Jay wanted to appeal. Me? OF COURSE IS FIND OUT WHAT THE FUCK IS KS08! So I log into the site again. This time siok d. Can log in! So I quickly browse through the whole list of University codes and find KS08. Finally! Found it. I thought my eyes are playing tricks on me. Maths? I see again. Actuarial Science. No no no. It's MATH. The bloody code sheet was so small that I had to look a few times before confirming I got MATH! I was like TIU. Math nia la. At that moment I told myself, should I go to the top university or should I stay here and finish of with actuarial science?

I was so nervous and I called my mom. Well after talking to her, I actually had a feeling that I was some how experiencing the same luck as her. She had to study in PJ, she was a major in math, and many thing. Now only I understand the secrets between a mother and a son. Cut the crap. She only tell me one thing. Math, what job can you get? Do you want to end up like me? Then I took that into consideration. Later that day, I posted a question to a forum. All I get was quite stupid. "It depends on you, what you like." Harlo! If I know then I wouldn't be asking la! I need suggestion! Not you telling me to follow what I like. So I was still undecided until last Friday. Somebody finally said something that made sense. "

" Do you want to be a Math Teacher or an Actuary? I think Actuary has a better prospect. Stay in UTAR" -xxx-

I'll keep him anonymous. However, I seriously thank him for helping me to make up my mind. His words are just as wise as Socrates'. He enlightened me! I went on searching what can I do with a Math degree. My result? Teacher, Lecturer, Researcher or Mathematician. TUT... I can be all that except Mathematician with my Actuarial Science degree. So that helped me to make up my mind already. I DO NOT WANT TO BE A MATHEMATICS TEACHER! I will stay in UTAR to complete my course. I had chosen this. I will not turn against my decision. I will not regret. 

Finally, congratulation to those who got awesome courses again. While those who got into the same situation as me, bless you. Seriously, get into something which you really like and really have a good future. Last but not least, my sympathy to those who did not get offered. They say every road leads to Rome. I forgot which language was it from already. So be strong and face the real world now my friends. University life is really nothing like those time we had in school and especially Smart X Idiot era.

-- sign off--

v(^v^)v 

Final Fantasy

Actually I got the idea of posting this like 2 days ago. I was watching Shadow Of The Day mv on YouTube at first. Then suddenly I come across this amv of Avatar: The Last Airbender with Shadow Of The Day as the background song. Then a familiar face pops out. Some 3D character with a scar. Yes, most of the PS one and Squaresoft supporter should know who I am talking about already. The answer is none other than --- SQUALL LEONHART. No idea? I'll let you think first. Save the best for the last. 

I am actually a fan of Final Fantasy series. I first started playing Final Fantasy III in the old version of game console where u have a big piece of cartridge. I never finish the whole game because the game couldn't be saved. So what can I do? I can't be sitting there for like a few days rite? Moreover I am just 6 that time. My sister used to laugh at me when I play such game. You know, when you have your turn, your hero will come out and do some slicing action and damage were done, you kill the monster and you gain exp. Ok ok. It's dull actually. However, the story is different with Final Fantasy series. They have something called Story line which you can see the ending actually. Not like Mario Bros. , my sister actually cheated to get to the last castle in 2ominutes and ran like mad dog to save the Princess. 

Never mind, back to Final Fantasy. So slowly I played FF IV, FF V then FF VI. All those games were in 2D. So it actually looked quite silly to me now. Hee. Right, then the first version of Final Fantasy Tactics came out. I don't get to play it at first mainly it's because I don't have a Playstation. I don't get my Playstation until I was like 12 year old? When I finally got my Playstation, the first game I took was Final Fantasy of course. That will be FF Tactics. Since the dealer said I could take a few FOC, the second is Final Fantasy VII and the third? You guess.

So I started FF Tactics. The characters are the same as those in FF IV or is it VI? Where there are Human, Bangaa, Viera, Moogle and Nu Mou. Ok, that game was not hard at all. Then I moved to FF VII once I completed FF Tactics. FF VII I finished half only. Thanks to the graphics. The miniature there was like kinda absurd? Could's arms look like sausages to me. No mouth. The most absurd one will be TIFA! OH NO! In the animated movie she looked so nice. In the game? They, of course, focused on her huge upper body, which made her look ridiculous.  Never mind, the story line was kinda lame too. Then I switched to Final Fantasy VIII. This, I had to say, is the best among the Final Fantasy series in Playstation ONE. PS2 is a different story. Square soft finally managed to create a more lively 3D character. FF VIII also have a very touching story line. I love it. I think most of the Final Fantasy players would had imagine themselves as one of our heroes. Honestly, I love Final Fantasy VIII. I don't even mind if i have to be Zell. He's cool in fact. If given a choise, I'd choose to be Squall. Hee...

Enough of crap, let's continue to Final Fantasy IX. Final Fantasy IX focused more on child like characters. All the characters there are you know, child like. NOT childish. They looked so cute to me. Especially the monkey boy! Just like me. MUAHAHAHA. Ok, Final Fantasy IX had a pretty long story, and I think the princess looks pretty. I did not get to complete the whole game! The last disc was scratched before I can even do anything. Never mind. FF IX was the last of Playstation one series. Then I traded my Playstation one for a PS2 now the fun begins. FF X and FF X-2. To most of you. That is Final Fantasy X (ten) -2 (two). You should say ten-two instead of XII - twelve. You have another FF XII, which is again, similar to FF IV, Tactics and Tactics Advance. The only sad thing in FF X is I didn't manage to get Wakka's ultimate weapon and I did not get all Tidus' skills. I missed the Jack shot 3. Which is the FIRST. Alright. I never played FF XI since its an online game. Oh ya. X-2. That thing was a piece of crap! No la. I am the piece of crap. I finished the game but I did not manage to complete the whole 100%. By the way, Yuna looks cuter there. She looked kinda plum in X with the kimono like thing. Then we have Final Fantasy XII which, at last, they changed the battle form already. Now you have to run around to hit your enemies. It's kinda hard at first, but slowly when you get to it, IT'S a lot better than the previous FFs. Now I am still on it, 57% already, but have to go study = no PS2 so can not continue yet.

Yay, completed the 12 FFs, now the lastest Final Fantasy VII - Cerebus and Final Fantasy XIII. I don't get to play those. I don't have a PS3. Wait. Might go and get it soon! Muahahahaha. For now, this is all. Conclusion? I love Final Fantasy VIII the most. 

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